Ugh…this hits me where I live right now…..for the past, oh, about three months now, I’ve been holed up, even when traveling…..unable to leave my quarters because I can’t deal with the inner and the outer at the same time.
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Posted by Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA on January 30, 2015
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sheldonk2014
/ January 31, 2015It’s hard to strike the balance between you and the pain, there are days I want to take the covers and pull them over my head, but I know deep down that the covers will take away but enhance. So I push even harder because when I do I forget about and I can feel all over again, it’s a constant when you live with the pain, but I only have this one to get it rite so my choice is life instead of the pain, I will send you lite my friend, when you reach out that is a start, don’t beat yourself up but get yourself props
As always sheldon
Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA
/ January 31, 2015It’s good that you have control over the pain, that you can push the pain away at least for a while. Knowing that you have that control is a very powerful asset. Thank you so much for your gift of light! I treasure it. Be well, Sheldon. ❤
prideinmadness
/ January 31, 2015This comic makes me think of how when we’re experiencing sadness we’re told to go hangout with friends but sometimes what we need is time to ourselves. Cutting ourselves off completely isn’t good but self care can sometimes be sitting at home in bed and doing something that doesn’t take a lot of effort.
Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA
/ January 31, 2015I agree with you. Sometimes what I need is to get in bed and watch a Tarantino movie on my iPad, which sounds weird but it is so unlike anything I would normally choose to do that it kind of jolts my mind out of its rut, if that’s what’s going on. Other times when I am getting frighteningly close to a psychotic episode, an extra dose of Seroquel and a day or two of sleep therapy is what I need, to let those neurons settle down. I don’t have any friends to hang out with, so that’s not an option. When I was in Jerusalem all I had to do was walk two blocks to the Shuk (marketplace) and the sights, sounds, and smells almost always brought me back to a tolerable, and sometimes joyful, place. Now it’s total isolation. I am researching ways of changing that!
prideinmadness
/ January 31, 2015Have you heard of a site called MeetUp? It’s a website were people can organize groups on a variety of different topics and interests. I joined a Borderline group. Haven’t gone yet but I’m excited to try it.
http://www.meetup.com/cities/us/
The Grundlands
/ February 1, 2015Yup. Im there too. Tortured and alone and angry and defeated and miserable. Trying to at least parent halfway decently but I’m an asshole to my kids too. All self-loathing being projected onto/taken out on my family.
Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA
/ February 1, 2015Oh sweetie, I wish I was there to hold you. Watch for my email.
sheldonk2014
/ February 12, 2015Laura this what I been working on, trying to make peace with, I don’t know how to do it any other way but to write it out till all of the demons are gone,then I will move on, I was in a rage last nite, didn’t even go to art class today, i am unhappy with the teacher and her big mouth,she has been giving me a very hard time because she sees me as competition instead of her student, there was so much going on that a lot come out
Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA
/ February 12, 2015Yes, I noticed you were doing a lot of inner work last night. I couldn’t sleep, so I was up reading everyone else’s blog instead. You’re right, if you can get the demons onto paper they will be stuck there and can’t torment you any longer. At least that’s what I used to tell my son when he was 5!!! Maybe you should thank your art teacher for bringing up so much upsetting hell so you could deal with it, and then fire her and get a better one! You need a really good teacher who will challenge you not because s/he is threatened by your abilities, but because s/he sees you for who you are and aims to draw you out and challenge you to be the best you can be, which is always a work in progress, isn’t it?